It's not like I was left behind..
I am among the crowd..
Everyone listen to what I am saying..
Everyone give me a place to stay..
Everyone give me a chance to risk with my thoughts..
But I still feel like I am LACKING something inside.
Can't explain what I really need.
Don't ask.. I don't know the name of it..
Something I can say but I can't feel..
Although it makes me to be cold and sad, I still don't know how to deal with it..
It might harm someone to sink deeply in the blue..
I don't know what to do now..
It never fades away from my eyes..
Never..
As much as I try to forget this,it becomes to be clearer every minutes..
It pops up whenever I am going to think about something else..
Can't explain anymore..
A tried brain orders me to keep it..and hide it..
Hide it..
Put it in the closet..
I can't forget this.. I can't ignore this..
But I hear my voice says..
Deep..
Deeper..
In the deepest place..
Inside your soul..
I am still wondered..
Is it the best way?
Have I a right to forget?
AND..
Where is the deepest place my head mentioning to?